Ok how should I start this one. It's hard really. Some say it's best to take a firm stand on something you believe in. Others might say it's wise to compromise and find the middle path to satisfy everyone. So which to follow?
I was once the latter. Perhaps being born as a single child forced me to be so having to be an involuntary mediator to find peace from 2 opposing sides (if you know what i mean...not in a meme way). Is either that or having to face the thought of yr pillars of strength crumble in front of your eyes.
But throughout my years in school as well as right here in uni, it begins to feel that sometimes a "No" maybe the best answer, although it maybe hard to utter that word sometimes. Doesn't matter if that person is your friend, your roommate or even your parents. Once again perhaps it's just me trying to strike a balance but what do you know, life at times is like a pair of binary numbers is either 0 or 1, never a bloody 0.5.
So what if I chose the 0.5 at the wrong time? Well, as shown what happened recently, the 0.5 somehow "rounded up" itself to 1 (sorry for the maths analogy...bit too much maths in my head right now) and as a result, a person I know gets hurt, possibly offended and just turned off. I suppose my mistake of not telling him about it just serves to deepen the wound I caused. Call it intuition, but the facial language does tell it all.
I suppose a sincere apology is never sufficient for this level of hurt. But it's only the best I can do. Now the ball is in his court and I wish he will accept it and leave the dark matters behind. That for me is what a gentleman will do. Whether that will be a reality has yet to be seen.
On another note: here;s a song that I would like to share. You may have heard it on radio before and for me its really calming and soothing after all the trials and problems I have been facing these last few days. Enjoy.
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